feeling our inborn GPS

The roller coaster that defined my middle age is now a steady moving train on well-built tracks.  I’m watching myself gently slow down.  Some days I miss the drama, but mostly it feels developmentally right where I belong.  I love my work, the time devoted to it feels just about right, long stretches of quiet and connection are delightful. 
 
So this last chaotic month has been a challenge. It’s been a live version of a martial arts exercise from 5Rhythms teacher training.  A practice for everything everywhere all at once.  Picture a surrounding circle of 80 students randomly coming toward me while I either deflected them or escorted them back to the perimeter.  It was beautiful to witness when done skillfully.  Can’t claim that beauty for myself.  Sometimes teaching can be like that. 
 
Right now life feels that way. Two weeks of undercurrent apprehension awaiting biopsy results. Then finally breathing in good news.  The throat constriction is a congenital anomaly, no malignant cooties in there.  The not knowing background lurked through two weeks of roller coaster travel.  During which time my friend and partner lost her mom.  It was so hard not to be here.  The week before leaving the Body Joy website was hacked.  Been working on re-building since we returned.  There’s more…but I’m just gonna stop there.
 
Not wishing it away, but ready to welcome a return to equanimity.  I feel knocked off center, on a bit of shaky ground.  So it did not surprise me when I saw that my assignment for teaching Wednesday Waves tonight is alignment. Life pulls us this way and that. Sometimes we think one thing, feel another then move in a direction totally unrelated. Out of alignment. Sigh. But I’ve practiced enough to know that deep internal compass, lining me up when I veer off center. If we remember to tune in, our bodies can deliver us to true north, no matter what. So tonight we dive inward, feel our inborn GPS.
 
And tomorrow I take off To Wilbur Hot Springs where I’ll assist Sarana Milleron the yoga deck and teach one session of Roll & Release.  I love this oasis 60 miles away from Sacramento.  It is sold out this week-end but I’ll be back June 1-2 teaching 3 sessions on deck, included with your day or overnight pass.  Come soak and roll with me!
 
Just pick up the phone (916) 267-5478 and call if you want details.  I love talking to you.  ❤️Bella